pondering.

Last night [Or was it the night before that? Yeah, two nights ago.] I watched The Business of Being Born. It's exactly what it sounds like. It's all about birth. You are probably thinking whoa nelly, why in the world would you want to watch births?! This may sound weird, but birth is really intriguing to me. I'm interested in how other cultures perceive it and do it and in our own nation. Before kids, was I interested? Not so much, but being that I experienced two completely different births, it really intrigues me. So, I watched. And it made me want another one like right.this.instance. (Of course, I have been saying that since the day Naomi was born.) Then I remembered how sick I get while pregnant for the first seventeen weeks, and I thought I don't think I'm ready for that part of it yet.

I'm not sure what God has planned for us, but I know I was made to be a mother. It's tough, but I love it. Everyday the relationship between Audrey and Naomi grows and grows and my heart does the same. And I begin to think what would three...four...and maybe, just maybe five look like? Then I go back to three and four.

For now. Two is beautiful. And I'm taking in every moment of it.

How's that for a pre-holiday weekend thought? Birthing and babies. Happy July, folks.








[Another reason I was intrigued to watch The Business of Being Born is because the thought of a home birth has crossed my mind. With my first birth, I would have said heck no. But now, the idea is weighing in...hmm.....]

Back to the Future.

I always thought it was the coolest movie ever. I mean, the way the car doors opened like wings. The way the skateboards "floated" around. And Marty McFly was so dreamy. I totally wanted to own a time machine after watching Back to the Future. I think I may have even brainstormed ideas on how I could make one myself. I remember watching the movies and wondering what it was going to be like when I was older. What was my future going to look like? Would the houses be floating like The Jetsons? Would we have cool cars like McFly's? I mean at the time, you were hip if you had a gigantic cellphone (if you can even call it that) attached to your car through a huge bag of some sort. [Wow, flashback right now, to my parents car and that phone]. Oh, and power windows were just coming in. Wow, Audrey will probably never know that we used to have to roll down the window at drive-thrus. Life has definitely changed.

Now, here I am living in my future. With a baby. A husband. A house. In the country. Living life. And I could careless about all the futuristic things. [Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for technology and such, but I don't have to be in the know, ya know] And now I think, what will my daughter's future look like? What will things look like when she is driving?