When Audrey came into this world, she was immediately hooked up to monitors and we went directly from one hospital to another. At a mere five days she had to have a heart procedure done. I stressed about how much she nursed, how she slept, how she breathed. I basically tried to prevent something ever happening to her when she was a baby. My goal was to not let her cry, (except she cried a lot, because she was a more challenging baby-go figure) because then, then that would mean she was uncomfortable or hurt or needed me and I wasn't protecting her.
I lived in fear. I was putting more trust in my own human abilities, knowing that they fail, rather than trusting Jesus.
God calls us in the Bible to fear not. (Joshua 1:3-9)
He called Moses, Abraham, David, and the list goes on, to be strong and courageous. Even when you are fighting a battle. Even when all odds are against you. Because God will never leave us or forsake us. Never.
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present, nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39
So fear not.
This is something that I am learning. It doesn't come naturally for me to be a dare-devil, worry-free person, especially when it comes to my children. [Don't get me wrong, God also calls us to be wise in our decision making.]
I'm learning to give my children whole-heartily over to God. To raise brave kids, who find their confidence in Their Creator.
I don't expect my children to be someone they aren't, but I do want them to trust Jesus.
Their Creator knows them way better than I ever will. So I trust Him. I trust Him with the loves of my life. And I say things to my children throughout the day like It's ok, God is always with you, even when you fall down and get a boo-boo. Or God will always love you, He made you! or God tells us we are fearfully and wonderfully made, isn't that awesome! Or Just talk to God if you are feeling scared.
And although I'm telling those things to my children, I am also telling them to myself. To remind myself that God is in control. To have confidence in Him and His Abilities.
So when Audrey climbs that fence and could, wait for it, get tetnus, because I think about that, I still let her climb.
When the girls roll down the hill and oh my gosh, might wake up with chiggers the next day, I let them roll.
When Lincoln climbs the coffee table, I teach him how to get down himself, and let him figure it out.
And when my child has to be wheeled off on a hospital bed, I whisper, fear not, God is with you. And I whole-heartily turn to Jesus.
"In him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence." Ephesians 3:12
This picture is from my brother's wedding in June, so incredibly thankful to be having a normal summer. The every day is so, so good.